the a levels are over. that has nothing much to do with what's below.

11.24.06 (2:52 am)   [edit]

keep right on to the end of the road,
keep right on to the end.
tho' the way be long let your heart be strong,
keep right on round the bend.

tho' you're tired and weary, still journey on,
'til you come to that happy abode
where all you love, you've been dreaming of,
will be there at the end of the road.

10.08.06 (3:18 am)   [edit]

again, from urbandictionary.com

FRUITY:

"Fruity" has a precise meaning, but is difficult to define. Loosely speaking, the word refers to something which is cheerfully and perkily saccharine, naïve, generic, corny, banal, innocuous, un-self-consciously dippy, sexually neutered (or, conversely, having perverse subtexts), or just plain dumb - and is amusing because of it. Dorkiness which doesn't even know that it's dorky, but celebrates its own dorkiness anyway: that which is flamboyantly and happily retarded.

i guess that's me x(

10.08.06 (3:16 am)   [edit]

from urbandictionary.com

VEENA:

While the history of this word is quite a mystery, its defintion has always stayed consistant. This term refers to a person that doesn't realize what a princess she really is, when its soo appearant to everyone else that meets her.

now, i'm gonna name my daughter that.

[anyone lived in a pretty how town] by E. E. Cummings

09.29.06 (9:58 pm)   [edit]

anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn't he danced his did

Women and men (both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn't they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain

children guessed (but only a few
and down the forgot as up they grew
autumn winter summer spring)
that noone loved him more by more

when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone's any was all to her

someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hope and then) they
said their nevers they slept their dream

stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt to forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)

one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk burried them side by side
little by little and was by was

all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
lwish by spirit and if by yes

Women and men (both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain

only this i want.

09.17.06 (6:00 am)   [edit]

only this i want:
but to know the Lord,
and to bear His cross,
so to wear the crown He wore.

all but this is loss,
worthless refuse to me,
for to gain the Lord
is to gain all i need.

i will run the race;
i will fight the good fight,
so to win the prize
of the kingdom of my Lord.

let your heart be glad,
always glad in the Lord,
so to shine like stars
in the darkness of the night.

only this i want:
but to know the Lord,
and to bear His cross,
so to wear the crown He wore.

09.15.06 (7:31 pm)   [edit]
Tonight I watch the lights go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you can still get to sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
And I can't hide that I relied on you
Like yellow does on blue

And your my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside her room she paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside her room she paints me blue

Atlanta started raining on me
And teenage love was underground
Tonight I break the surface
Atlanta started raining on me

And no young girl was claiming me
And naming me
And destiny gets nervous and

And your my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside her room she paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside her room she paints me blue, again

i will survive! i like cupcakes and chocolate muffins.

08.07.06 (5:31 am)   [edit]

"it's those most difficult to love that need our love most."
- li xiao'an

nicky + tv shows = call a hotline

08.01.06 (6:33 am)   [edit]

 

we are all vampires at heart.  xD

i'm forgettable x(

05.25.06 (5:24 am)   [edit]
Two to one
Static to the sound of you and I
I'm done for the last time
And there this was
Hiding at the bottom of your
Swimming pool some September
And don't you think
I wish I could stay

Your lips give you away
I can hear it, the jet engine
Through the center of the storm
And I'm thinking I'd
Prefer not to be rescued

Two to none
Roads that lead away from this
I'm following myself just this once
And I've got spun
It appears you're spun as well
It happens when you pay attention
This could take all year, but

When it's quiet, does she hear me?
Jettisoned to the center of the storm
And I'm thinking I
Prefer not to be rescued

Oh, I can feel her, she's dying
Just to keep me cool
I'm finally numb, so please
Don't get me rescued... rescued...

And it's unclear
But this may be my last song
Oh, I, I can tell
She's raising hell to give to me
But she got me once
So please don't get me rescued

Oh, say you'll miss me one last time
I'll be strong, but whatever you do
Please don't get me rescued...

Cause I'm feeling like
I might need to be near you
And I feel alright, so please
Don't get me rescued...

one of the mysteries of animals revealed...

05.16.06 (6:36 am)   [edit]

glen. says:

the giraffe is an animal with a long neck

glen. says:

and becoz it has a long neck

glen. says:

it requires neck muscles to keep the neck straight

glen. says:

now all that muscle contraction

glen. says:

is going to need some potassium

glen. says:

becoz potassium is fundementally the chemical which causes muscle contractions

glen. says:

and so the giraffe, instead of having red blood filled with haemoglobin

glen. says:

has blue blood filled with potassium

glen. says:

otherwise it would explode because so much blood and so much potassium has got to need some storage space

glen. says:

and THAT it why giraffe's have blue tongues

glen. says:

the blood in it is blue

glen. says:

alternatively

glen. says:

one could argue that giraffe's eat alot of blueberries

glen. says:

or tries to lick the sky

yes, i think that must be it.

04.10.06 (7:59 am)   [edit]

vann` FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK. says:

dont feel stupid!!!!!!!!!!!

vann` FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK. says:

you're not!!!

vann` FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK. says:

-HUGS-

vann` FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK. says:

you need to sleep

vann` FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK. says:

go sleep

vann` FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK. says:

and tmr morning eat some chocolate

vann` FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK. says:

and SMILE

vann` FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK. says:

and things will be better, promise

laugh like that moo.+*‮٭ says:

x) thanks van

the runaways.

03.27.06 (6:35 am)   [edit]
Come closer now
I know your desire is to be desired
Steal a kiss yet and call us friends
Distance is the thief in which you conspire

Turn and time and time will tell
Time will tell or tear us apart
You're miles and miles and miles away
Silence reveals where we really are

You only stand to break my heart
I can tell it by the way you runaway,
Runaway girl
You only stand to break my heart
I can tell it by the way you runaway,
Runaway girl
Runaway, runaway girl

It's clearer now
You're nowhere into giving
Giving into, giving into me
It's your fault
You're like a rare disease
I know you're in love
With love I believe

Turn and time and time will tell
Time will tell or tear us apart
You're miles and miles and miles away
Silence reveals where we really are

You only stand to break my heart
I can tell it by the way you runaway,
Runaway girl
You only stand to break my heart
I can tell it by the way you runaway,
Runaway girl
Runaway, runaway girl

Do you expect me to wait here?
(All alone in my thoughts and fears)
My whole life could flash before your eyes
(Hope one day that you realize)
This isn't the way it's supposed to be
(This is your life girl, now without me)
May regrets for us well up inside
(As feelings for you are buried alive)
Buried alive

You only stand to break my heart
I can tell it by the way you runaway,
Runaway girl
You only stand to break my heart
I can tell it by the way you runaway,
Runaway girl
Runaway, runaway girl

I only stand to break your heart
You can tell it by the way I walk away,
Runaway girl
I only stand to break your heart
You can tell it by the way I run away,
Runaway girl

the boy who blocked his own shot.

03.26.06 (6:10 am)   [edit]

 

If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand.
I hope you find out what you want.
I already know what I am.
And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again.
And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am.
I'll grow old and start acting my age.
I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.
A crown of gold.
A heart that's harder than stone.
And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone.
Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state.
You can keep to yourself.
I'll keep out of your way.
And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down.
Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.
It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room,
when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds.
So call it quits or get a grip.
Say you wanted a solution.
You just wanted to be missed.
Call me a safe bet.
I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget...

So you can forget
You can forget
You are calm and reposed.
It lets your beauty unfold.
Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones.
Spring keeps you ever close.
You are second hand smoke.
You are so fragile and thin.
Standing trial for your sins.
Holding onto yourself the best you can.
You are the smell before rain.
You are the blood in my veins.

Call me a safe bet.
I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

I love you.
And I have been loved by you.
and that's enough for me right now.
funny how i'm still sad.

i'm so selfish.

03.20.06 (5:13 am)   [edit]

my dad is so elitist.

i am part of the cosmetic education system.

and how do you really keep photos in a bucket?

crooked teeth.

02.08.06 (5:39 am)   [edit]

It was one hundred degrees, as we sat beneath a willow tree,
Who's tears didn't care, they just hung in the air, and refused to fall, to fall.

And I knew I'd made horrible call,
And now the state line felt like the Berlin wall,
And there was no doubt about which side I was on.

Cause I built you a home in my heart,
With rotten wood, it decayed from the start.

Cause you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.
No you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.

I braved treacherous streets,
And kids strung out on homemade speed.
And we shared a bed in which I could not sleep,
At all, woo, hoo, woo, hooOoOo.

Cause at night the sun in retreat,
Made the skyline look like crooked teeth,
In the mouth of a man who was devouring, us both.

You're so cute when you're slurring your speech,
But they're closing the bar and they want us to leave.

And you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.
No you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.

I'm a war, of head versus heart,
And it's always this way.
My head is weak, my heart always speaks,
Before I know what it will say.

And you can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along.
There were churches, theme parks and malls,
But there was nothing there all along.

i love you nicky. mm.

that thing i do.

02.05.06 (5:59 am)   [edit]

You,
Doin' that thing you do,
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do
And you,
Don't mean to be cruel,
You never even knew about the heartache,
I've been going through
Well I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I,
Know all the games you play,
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
You'll be mine someday
'Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
'Cause I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl,
But I know one thing's for sure,
It's the love I haven't got girl,
And I just can't take it anymore

'Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go,
Around with someone new,
And if I know you you're doin' that thing,
Every day just doin' that thing,
I can't take you doing that thing you do

me and you, what a feeling. x)

01.31.06 (4:53 am)   [edit]
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

the ultimate of sweetness.

01.29.06 (6:14 pm)   [edit]

Saint Theresa is known as the Saint of the Little
Ways. Meaning she believed in doing the little things
in life well and with great love
. She is also the
patron Saint of flower growers and florists. She is
represented by roses.
 

St. Theresa's Prayer:

May today there be peace within. May you trust God
that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May
you not forget the infinite possibilities that are
born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have
received, and pass on the love that has been given to
you. May you be content knowing you are a child of
God. Let this presence settle into our bones, and
allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and
love. It is there for each and every one of you.

x) amen.

01.19.06 (2:47 am)   [edit]
because if you start asking it'll all be hostile acting don't ever ask me where i'm from.

the astronaut

01.04.06 (5:33 am)   [edit]
i've been sleeping with ghosts
i've been watching stars
crawling out of the sky
and i've been hoping
i'm close to the space man movies
i call my life

and i've been climbing ladders through time
i've got tunnel vision
but i'm doing fine
and i've been
watching stars coming off of the wall
and maybe if i'm lucky i can catch them
before you fall
and you are not alone

calling out to the astronaut
i need some of what you've got
i need to be high
crawling out of the world she brought
calling out to the astronaut
i need to be high

and i've been holding
this microphone
and i've been shouting out
but i think we're alone
and i've got platinum vision
and a tin foil touch
i've got you to propel me
but i still need so much
not to be alone

calling out to the astronaut
i need some of what you've got
i need to be high
crawling out of the world she brought
calling out to the astronaut
i need to be high

and you are not alone
you are not alone
you are not alone

calling out to the astronaut
i need some of what you've got
i need to be high
crawling out of the world she brought
calling out to the astronaut
i need to be high
calling out to the astronaut
i need some of what you've got
i need to be high
disappear in the world she brought
calling out to the astronaut
i need to be high

and i've got you to propel me
but i still need so much

SHAKE IT

12.01.05 (4:44 am)   [edit]
Well you stood downtown on my street
You got the shakes from your head to your feet
I was just gonna say, but I won't anyway
Word up, damn straight, I'll take it
Ooh, you just gotta shake it

You move like the crack of a whip
And you slide your tongue on your lips
And I don't wanna go if you don't wanna know
Word up, damn straight, I'll take it
Ooh, you just gotta shake it

I was just gonna say, but I won't anyway
Word up, damn straight, I'll take it
Ooh, you just gotta shake it

harlequin girls

11.27.05 (4:35 am)   [edit]
Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as you're fingers touch your skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we just were getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

"I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you"

11.19.05 (6:38 pm)   [edit]

this was the gospel reading for wyman's&melissa's wedding ytd:

Scripture: John 15:9-17  (alternate reading: John 21:20-25)


9 As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you; abide in my love. 10 If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and abide in his love. 11 These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full. 12 "This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command you. 15 No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have  heard from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide; so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. 17 This I command you, to love one another.


Meditation: Do you know the love that produces immeasurable joy? Jesus speaks of the love which the Father and he have for those who belong to him.  We can never outgive God in love, because he has loved us without measure. Our love for him is a response to his exceeding mercy and kindness towards us. Paul the Apostle tells us that we can abound in joy and hope because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us (Romans 5:5).  In God's love we find the fulness of grace, life, peace, and joy. Jesus gives his disciples a new commandment -- a new way of love.  We are to love others as Jesus has loved us.  What is the essence of this new commandment?  True love is sacrificial.  It gives all to the beloved.  And there is no greater proof in love than the sacrifice of one's life for the sake of another. Jesus proved his love for his disciples by giving his life for them, even to death on the cross. We prove our love for God and for one another when we embrace the way of the cross.  What is the cross in my life?  When my will crosses with God's will, then God's will must be done.  Do you know the joy and contentment of a life fully surrendered to God and consumed with his love?

Do you know the friendship of God?  One of the special marks of favor shown in the scriptures is to be called the friend of God.  Abraham is called the friend of God (Isaiah 41:8). God speaks with Abraham as a man speaks with his friend (Exodus 33:11). Jesus, the Lord and Master, in turn, calls the disciples his friends rather than his servants. What does it mean to be a friend of God? Friendship with God certainly entails a loving relationship which goes beyond mere duty and obedience. Jesus' discourse on friendship and brotherly love echoes the words of Proverbs: A friend loves at all times; and a brother is born for adversity (Proverbs 17:17). The distinctive feature of Jesus' relationship with his disciples was his personal love for them. He loved his own to the end (John 13:1).  His love was unconditional and wholly directed to the good of others.  His love was also sacrificial.  He gave the best he had and all that he had.  He gave his very life for those he loved in order to secure for them everlasting life with the Father.

True love is costly. Those who truly love give the best they can offer and are willing to sacrifice everything they has for the beloved.  God willingly paid the price for our redemption — the sacrifice of his only begotten Son. That's the nature of true friendship and love — the willingness to give all for the beloved. True friends will lay down their lives for each other. Jesus tells us that he is our friend and he loves us whole-heartedly and unconditionally. He wants us to love one another just as he loves us, whole-heartedly and without reserve. His love fills our hearts and transforms our minds and frees us to give ourselves in loving service to others. If we open our hearts to his love and obey his command to love our neighbor, then we will bear much fruit in our lives, fruit that will last for eternity. Do you wish to be fruitful and to abound in the love of God?


www.rc.net/wcc/readings/may14.htm
found it while searching for the St ig's prayer. at first i was gonna jus close the window but guilt overcame me and i thought, 'make time for God'. so i did. and i'm glad.


yes, God, i wish to be fruitful and to abound in Your love. teach me to give, freely, and never ask for any return. help me not to forget.

yes, i know that my treasure is heaven.

11.15.05 (3:06 am)   [edit]

i'm going back to You.
God, please don't let me stray, don't let me loose sight of You, my precious saviour. because i desire to know You, to be with You. yes, i know that my treasure is heaven.


the rocket summer - treasures


Night has found its way here
And all I can hear are memories shrill and clear
Like today man had his way
And stole and what I made
He saw that I was sincere

So use me up, then throw me away
Build your careers and friendships
Quote on Quote and frankly I’m ashamed
That I left my name on her lips
Cause when it ends they’ll swear it is

So I’ll fall asleep and try not to think twice
About all the things that forever
Will kick me down the steps
For being too nice
Cause everyone’s searching for treasure

And they’ll just dig, dig, dig
Until they cant get out
And dying dirty digging for treasure
But as for me I’m giving up and I'll take my bow
And focus on my treasure forever
Yes, I know that my treasure is heaven


i love you, Lord.

dance with me

11.13.05 (2:56 am)   [edit]

the beatles again.


Well, she was just 17
You know what I mean
And the way she looked was way beyond compare
So how could I dance with another (Whooh)
When I saw her standing there

Well she looked at me, and I, I could see
That before too long I'd fall in love with her
She wouldn't dance with another (Whooh)
When I saw her standing there

Well, my heart went "boom"
When I crossed that room
And I held her hand in mine...

Whoah, we danced through the night
And we held each other tight
And before too long I fell in love with her
Now I'll never dance with another (Whooh)
Since I saw her standing there